Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Death

'Its better to burn out than fade away', this is what Jimmy Handrix/Some nirvana singer said before killing himself. The members of optimistic society might see his act of suicide as an act of cowardice, but I beg to differ a little bit.

Let's start with from the point it all starts. When you are born, you are not asked if you want a life or not, it's some one else who makes that choice without even taking your view in consideration. You have not even a single say in choosing the religion, family, place, time or any other measurable or immeasurable entity. So the game starts by you learning the rule of the game by start playing like a rookie and trying to master excellence. But the game doesn't give a start to everyone on even keel. Some start way ahead from others whereas some don't even get to run on the track. But the parameters to measure the performance and decide the Victorian are predefined and blindly measuring the output. No one gets a handicap for the late starts, tottering starts, brutal stoppages. It's a bloody cruel race.

But what if I don't want to run in a race I never wanted to? Why not I can easily opt out of this? After all, I wasn't asked when I was born, so no one should question me if I want to die.

Why 'suicide' is such a taboo in the society and seen as an act of cowardice? If I kill my self, it's just that I want to opt out of something that was forced upon me. May be I never wanted this.

Suicide is an act when an individual's capacity to suffer in the hands of life crosses the extremes. Capacity becomes a relative word which entirely depends on individual's tolerance towards pain. So, let the individual decide the performance of the act and respect it.

As a student of science, I have always studies the law of downhill diffusion. The only place I could spot the exception, the existence of an uphill diffusion, is life. Why should I accept the exception when the rules of real world state otherwise?

For the optimists lobbying for the life to be beautiful, it all lies in the eyes of beholder. What if my eyes refuse to accept what my mind is being told by them?
Life is an egoistic bitch; it'll put you to a test of extremism even at a slight disregard. Death is an angel, even though we are all always running away from it, it happily accepts us in our worst of forms.

6 comments:

Spiff said...

First things first...u quoting Jimmi Hendrix :O

How times change...still remeber the debate on Jimi Hendrix with Jena and Somdeb on one side and you and me on the other...whatever made you change ur stand...

Neway..as per me..either u live by the rules or u dont...so if u think u were forced...take it for granted tht thr ll be no choice in u not to be considered coward...ie ..so if u wanna die..but if society thinks u were a coward( Personally i feel its more stupidity rather than cowardice which makes u committ suicide)..they r rite...they made the rules..they live by it...so if u dont wanna live by the rules...its ok..but dont crib abt others hu do...either u care wht ppl say or u dont

Anirban said...

Nice article on death but 1st line is factually not very correct...better to burn out than fade away', this is what Jimmy Handrix said before killing himself. - This is what Nirvana's Kurt Cobain said before killing himself...Jimi Hendrix didnt kill himself...he died of heroin overdose..

Anirban said...

Nice article on death but 1st line is factually not very correct...better to burn out than fade away', this is what Jimmy Handrix said before killing himself. - This is what Nirvana's Kurt Cobain said before killing himself...Jimi Hendrix didnt kill himself...he died of heroin overdose..

vibhor said...

Hello Vibhash,

I came across your blog via a common friend of ours, Piyush Bajpai. I really appreciate your way of venting out your thoughts and ideas in form of words and most of the ( I won't say all of them! ) anecdotes are really well elucidated.The one titled "Death" seems to give me a picture of chaotic mind ( perhaps disgruntled too.) You start it with " It's better to burn out than fade away". I am not very much aware of Jimmy Handrix and his philosophy. ( Actually 'am not a very big fan of Angreeeji Muuuzik, because I hardly understand it ;)
Nevertheless, let me revert back to the starting statement of your paragraph. The way of looking at any thing, any word, any sentence, any person and any situation varies vastly from different perspectives. Even before you gave a thoughtful perspective of the statement, you have started lamenting about the optimistic society and you are "begging" to differ a "little bit". First, if you look at the statement with just 1 minute of deep thought, ummmm....let me give you an example. The candle which illuminates the darkness, does so by "burning itself". It is not a process of fading away. It is a process of burning itself. Now fading away would not be burning itself and would be going dark with just whiz of wind. The statement never reflects ( from any perspective!!! ) that burning away means committing suicide. Trying for something is always better than not trying and burning out means giving efforts and trying for something.
You do write well ( and of course friend of my friend !! ) and I am not trying to be a critique, but it lies in my nature and I can't stop from saying or doing things the way my heart tells me to do.
Further, well there many other things in this particular blog which are written by a confused and unclear mind. ( unclear for this particular Blog... perhaps you were sleepy in night...or perhaps disgruntled due to something....) I would have loved to comment further but for the time.
Anyways, keep on writing and keep it up pal!

Regards,

Vibhor

p.s: Yes, this might be "old school" style of writing applications which we were taught in India! But "begging" for something was during colonial times. Stop "begging" for anything. To be different you don't need to beg people, just be what you want to be. And be as different as you want to be, be a radical if you like... don't ask "I beg to be little different". Doesn't show the strength in your personality to be different.

Vibhash Prakash Awasthi said...

yaar kuch samajh mein nahi aaya ki kya kahna chhahte ho...

vibhor said...

Hi Vibhash,

I liked all your blogs. This was not clear to me as what exactly are you trying to say. The one titled "Death". Could you say it one line, the crux of what exactly you want to convey?

I was saying, as per what I could understand from your write up.

Regards,

Vibhor

p.s. By the way, how do you and Piyush know each other?